To whom it concerns

I have an idea what you see when you look at me. I've been afraid that I've been seeing the same thing for years. You see the aggressive,temperamental control freak a lot. I know this because I've seen the same thing when I've looked at someone else my whole life. But don't think for one moment I don't wish to "god" I didn't have to be as tough as I am.

I would love, for one second, to let someone else take care of me. To help me, to let me off the hook, but that's not the way it is. I have to be strong, like them, I don't want to be, but there's no one else to do the job. I wish it were different everyday, but this is who I am, and I do the things that need to be done.

And I think I understand you. I'm sorry you've been coddled. I'm sorry you haven't had the background I have. Because my whole life there has always been someone there to call my "bullshit-high-horse-attitude" for exactly what it was. I've always had (several) someone(s) to knock me down a peg when I needed it. And you never have.
I call 'bullshit' when I see it, and I won't spare your ego to do it(They're overrated). But now's the time to put-up or shut-up and grow-up. You can either accept me, for the strong woman I am. A woman who loves deeply, loyally and fiercely,family, friends or Lover. Who would go-to-bat and punch someone in the face for you. Or you can continue to run and hide in your own bitterness, and immature self involvement.

I've never judged you no matter what you've done, and I'm not about to start. But this does not mean I don't expect you to "own" your actions. "Own" the things you do, become a better person. I still love you for you, and I want to continue on as a better person, and I'd like you to continue with me.