I got a call from MammaFriend today while I was painting my room.
MF: Do you wanna go?
Me: Go where?
MF: Our 5 year reunion! It was this Summer, they're having a get together for it soon
Me: You are an insane person, no.
MF: Why not???!!!
UGH. Highschool? Where do I begin? It wasn't all nerd horror. I hid in Catholic School for freshman year. Gave public education a try for Sophmore through Senior years, and spent most of my time hiding backstage working technical theater on various shows.(Never a bad time to learn basic electrical work and sound systems) There were some fun times in art and C++ classes, 4th period free (4th period was lunch and class. Upper Dublin had this strange scheduling thing where the whole period was an hour and a half) It took me 3 years NOT to learn Latin very well. And 1 year to forget most of it after that. So WHY THE HELL WOULD I WANT TO GO BACK??? (Put it this way, I opted to NOT show up for the Senior class picture. I knew it was mandatory, but I was in the middle of developing some film. So in the darkroom I stayed.)
Long term friends are a rare commodity for this headcase. With the exception of Mammafriend, who I've known since 3rd grade, there's only 1 other person from highschool that I keep in contact with from time to time (unfortunately he's a bit of a headcase as well, and conversations are kind of...exhausting) I have a few highschool haunts in my friends list on Myspace, but I'll admit, that's just because I'm too much of a chicken shit to reply "Highschool's over, and in 5 years I still haven't thought of anything to say to you. :/" So there they'll sit, not being talked to. I guess I could make my excuses easier on the webpages than in real life. Not to be a jerk, but the thought of spending a night with these people still pretending to be interested, and trying to think of something to say, brings a migraine I'd rather not deal with.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Sunday, October 21, 2007
update time.
I'm moving...again. Along with several other people it seems. Is it just the season?? It's back to PA for me (thank god). My Grandfather needs someone to give him more of a hand. My Mom's been trying, but it's too much for her to run 2 house holds, so I said I'd move in and help.
Along with that, I want to look into going to school for something else. I love what I've learned about animation, but lately I've just been feeling more and more that there's something else I'd rather be doing. My nerd loves learning the programs, and playing on the computer, but it's not driving me. And I'm reminded of what my teacher said to my class years ago. "The fact is, is that half of you aren't going to really "make it" because there's a difference between being a fan of animation, and being an animator." I knew I felt the doubts about my ability to "make it" then, and my situation now, because my efforts are not successful, is only getting worse.
Before I got into art, my first love was (is) science. I LOVE biology, and genetics. Enough that when I inadvertantly go off on something in way too much detail I get the "why do you know that?" look from my friends. (If you haven't seen it..stick around you probably will) I've been thinking more and more about nursing the last few months. How much good you can do for people, how much of a difference you can make.
It really is something I want to persue...but I'm afraid. What if I'm just being flighty? What if I'm not good at it? I know I can learn the material, learning's never been a problem for me. But what if I follow my gut, get into this, and it turns out the same way? Or what if I stick with what I'm trying to do now, and this was real? Like always, it's not taking the chance, it's failing that's the problem.
And then there's always the fun thought of....how do I tell my parents?? They're looking out for me...but what they will see first are the $$. Not that they're wrong, being very in debt is NOT fun. Being deeper in debt will just plain suck.
What should I do? *shakes magic 8 ball* Future unclear, ask again later. Figures, stupid 8 ball *chucks magic 8 ball*
I'm moving...again. Along with several other people it seems. Is it just the season?? It's back to PA for me (thank god). My Grandfather needs someone to give him more of a hand. My Mom's been trying, but it's too much for her to run 2 house holds, so I said I'd move in and help.
Along with that, I want to look into going to school for something else. I love what I've learned about animation, but lately I've just been feeling more and more that there's something else I'd rather be doing. My nerd loves learning the programs, and playing on the computer, but it's not driving me. And I'm reminded of what my teacher said to my class years ago. "The fact is, is that half of you aren't going to really "make it" because there's a difference between being a fan of animation, and being an animator." I knew I felt the doubts about my ability to "make it" then, and my situation now, because my efforts are not successful, is only getting worse.
Before I got into art, my first love was (is) science. I LOVE biology, and genetics. Enough that when I inadvertantly go off on something in way too much detail I get the "why do you know that?" look from my friends. (If you haven't seen it..stick around you probably will) I've been thinking more and more about nursing the last few months. How much good you can do for people, how much of a difference you can make.
It really is something I want to persue...but I'm afraid. What if I'm just being flighty? What if I'm not good at it? I know I can learn the material, learning's never been a problem for me. But what if I follow my gut, get into this, and it turns out the same way? Or what if I stick with what I'm trying to do now, and this was real? Like always, it's not taking the chance, it's failing that's the problem.
And then there's always the fun thought of....how do I tell my parents?? They're looking out for me...but what they will see first are the $$. Not that they're wrong, being very in debt is NOT fun. Being deeper in debt will just plain suck.
What should I do? *shakes magic 8 ball* Future unclear, ask again later. Figures, stupid 8 ball *chucks magic 8 ball*
Sunday, October 14, 2007
The definative word (warning: nerd content)
Kevin Conroy IS Batman
Mark Hamill IS the Joker
and that is that!
I bought Batman The Animated Series: "Mask of the Phantasm" and "Subzero" this morning....GIDDY ME!!! Call me crazy, or easily ammused, but this show was hands down awesomeness. One of the first cartoons to be action packed enough for Saturday mornings on Fox and integral enough to be Film Noir! Seriously....you wouldn't think you could sell Film Noir to 8 year olds..but it was done! Conroy voiced The Dark Knight, and Hamill, his nemesis.
I've said this..at least on one of several places before, but any comic book nerd like me will tell you Batman is THE MAN. There are (over the big publishing titles) several heavy hitters in the comic book world, and Batman's one of the heaviest!
[On a personal note I'd throw out names like (Desolation) Agent Jones/Cal MacDonal tied for carnage. Venom/Lobo tied for alien badasses. (I leave Carnage out of that set because essentially...Carnage was the spawn of Venom...so) Barb Wire/Sara Pezzini/ (Battle Angel) Alita/ and Violet Grimm tie for the, albeit objectified, smoking-hot-ass-kicking-chicks! (let's face it..they're ONLY meant to do 2 things...look hot and kick ass). And titles like V For Vendetta/Sin City/Fallen Angel/Sandman/30 Days of Night tying for just DAMN GOOD STORYTELLING!]**
Oh to be comic book guy, and get paid to KNOW this information. Best-Job-Ever!
Ok so maybe not so fat...or any facial hair...but you get the idea!
** Granted there are A LOT of titles and characters to choose from, so if I've left anyone out, forgive me, and give me a hint.
Mark Hamill IS the Joker
and that is that!
I bought Batman The Animated Series: "Mask of the Phantasm" and "Subzero" this morning....GIDDY ME!!! Call me crazy, or easily ammused, but this show was hands down awesomeness. One of the first cartoons to be action packed enough for Saturday mornings on Fox and integral enough to be Film Noir! Seriously....you wouldn't think you could sell Film Noir to 8 year olds..but it was done! Conroy voiced The Dark Knight, and Hamill, his nemesis.
I've said this..at least on one of several places before, but any comic book nerd like me will tell you Batman is THE MAN. There are (over the big publishing titles) several heavy hitters in the comic book world, and Batman's one of the heaviest!
[On a personal note I'd throw out names like (Desolation) Agent Jones/Cal MacDonal tied for carnage. Venom/Lobo tied for alien badasses. (I leave Carnage out of that set because essentially...Carnage was the spawn of Venom...so) Barb Wire/Sara Pezzini/ (Battle Angel) Alita/ and Violet Grimm tie for the, albeit objectified, smoking-hot-ass-kicking-chicks! (let's face it..they're ONLY meant to do 2 things...look hot and kick ass). And titles like V For Vendetta/Sin City/Fallen Angel/Sandman/30 Days of Night tying for just DAMN GOOD STORYTELLING!]**
Oh to be comic book guy, and get paid to KNOW this information. Best-Job-Ever!
Ok so maybe not so fat...or any facial hair...but you get the idea!
** Granted there are A LOT of titles and characters to choose from, so if I've left anyone out, forgive me, and give me a hint.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
My Italian/Sicilan temper
So tonight I had a situation come up that aroused the firey Italian/Sicilian in me. One of my roommates mom's came over to grab her mail (as it still comes here) and normally we all say "hi" with no big deal. Tonight, though, when I went in to make my dinner I found this note
needless to say I was a little bit insulted by this note considering that, while I don't pay that much in utilities, I do
*Do ALL dishes
*Clean the Living Room
*Clean/FLUSH the toilets (yea...my roomates are BOTH 28 years old and DON'T DO THIS)
*Collect/Take out the trash/recycling
*Clean the toilets/bathrooms
*clean up both roommates dishes left around the house
*clean the cat box
* clean my OWN living space
*keep the kitchen clean/organized
*Vacuuming
* Remind them to collect their laundry from the washer/dryer
Not to mention buy/cook my own food. After a bit of thought, though, it dawned on me that perhaps she didn't know this to be the case. Maybe she doesn't know that I clean up after the very basic of human tendencies. And she thinks that perhaps a miracle has happened and her son has begun to take responsibility for his own living conditions...yea Bette...no such luck...it's the girl roomie.
An "opportunity" has presented itself. And since it hasn't panned out yet I won't specify...but it'd be much better and full filling than being here, I can tell you that. If it does proceed, I'll be jumping on it!
needless to say I was a little bit insulted by this note considering that, while I don't pay that much in utilities, I do
*Do ALL dishes
*Clean the Living Room
*Clean/FLUSH the toilets (yea...my roomates are BOTH 28 years old and DON'T DO THIS)
*Collect/Take out the trash/recycling
*Clean the toilets/bathrooms
*clean up both roommates dishes left around the house
*clean the cat box
* clean my OWN living space
*keep the kitchen clean/organized
*Vacuuming
* Remind them to collect their laundry from the washer/dryer
Not to mention buy/cook my own food. After a bit of thought, though, it dawned on me that perhaps she didn't know this to be the case. Maybe she doesn't know that I clean up after the very basic of human tendencies. And she thinks that perhaps a miracle has happened and her son has begun to take responsibility for his own living conditions...yea Bette...no such luck...it's the girl roomie.
An "opportunity" has presented itself. And since it hasn't panned out yet I won't specify...but it'd be much better and full filling than being here, I can tell you that. If it does proceed, I'll be jumping on it!
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Betrayal
I'm sure this betrays some, natural pride or holistic law of nature,and don't get me wrong, I greatly appreciate the human form (I draw it a lot)But I saw this woman today on the bus. Her arms behind her head, with the sleeves of her shirt riding up to reveal a tangled bramble of arm hair sprouting from underneath the edges of the cloth!... DUDE...ICK! I know it was popular in the 60's, and is in Europe to this day(depending on culture)...but if there's one thing medical science has proven, it's that, along with the fact that humans no long have a use for an appendix, they also have little use for so much body hair(or the muscles under your skin that give you goosebumps to "fluff" said hair)
Maybe it's programming from society, but that just skeeves me. Get rid of it! Just thinking of the dynamics of how that would work with deodorant. And...ugh then there's the thought that maybe she's one of them! You KNOW who I'm talking about. The people you have the misfortune of walking by (read; smelling) every once in a while who think they don't need to wear deodorant.
As much as I can respect other cultures, and their habits, like slurping their food or talking ridiculously loud into their cell phones, there are things that should be understood universally. Wear deodorant, and keep up with personal hygiene should be right up there with NO Goat Fucking! These are important human values (and goat values while we're on topic)
On the bright side, at least I know the differences are out there. It makes me appreciate my own customs more, even if that means being an arrogant, ignorant American....hey...at least I smell like ocean breeze Suave buddy. I don't kill Flora and Fauna(or Meriwether) alike by raising my arms.
Maybe it's programming from society, but that just skeeves me. Get rid of it! Just thinking of the dynamics of how that would work with deodorant. And...ugh then there's the thought that maybe she's one of them! You KNOW who I'm talking about. The people you have the misfortune of walking by (read; smelling) every once in a while who think they don't need to wear deodorant.
As much as I can respect other cultures, and their habits, like slurping their food or talking ridiculously loud into their cell phones, there are things that should be understood universally. Wear deodorant, and keep up with personal hygiene should be right up there with NO Goat Fucking! These are important human values (and goat values while we're on topic)
On the bright side, at least I know the differences are out there. It makes me appreciate my own customs more, even if that means being an arrogant, ignorant American....hey...at least I smell like ocean breeze Suave buddy. I don't kill Flora and Fauna(or Meriwether) alike by raising my arms.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Fall!
Yay!
It's fall! Well...close enough to the actual feeling of it. The days are still a bit hot, but the nights have that chill to them, where leaving the windows open makes snuggling under my blanket awesome! (I'm easy to please) I found some awesome recipes I want to make this season (Now that I'm not hopping back and forth to NY so much I have TIME to cook again!) First on the list, since I'm going to visit my parents tomorrow, are Baked apples. I'm fairly excited to try this since it seems simple enough to start with. :)
It's fall! Well...close enough to the actual feeling of it. The days are still a bit hot, but the nights have that chill to them, where leaving the windows open makes snuggling under my blanket awesome! (I'm easy to please) I found some awesome recipes I want to make this season (Now that I'm not hopping back and forth to NY so much I have TIME to cook again!) First on the list, since I'm going to visit my parents tomorrow, are Baked apples. I'm fairly excited to try this since it seems simple enough to start with. :)
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