Sunday, December 3, 2006

"Twirling 'round with this familiar parabol"

I'm in a Tool-mood today. I got drunk last night and started thinking. I'm not very good with thinking, I over think, over analyze, and then obsess...I try not to.

A friend said something last night that literally cut right through my stupor, like parting a wave, for the drunk to only slowly crash back. I have to wonder how hard I'm trying in certain situations. What can I do to make things better? To change opinions. And I do care! I care a lot! I'm not the type that can just shrug things off and ignore people. Whether I mean to or not things get to me...hence the thinking. So if this friend's opinion is really in this manner.....there's something I'm not doing correctly. But then this begs the social situation...what do you show them? What do you hold back? Its like political head games and every one's playing them, they know the rules and they know how to play. If that be the case, I need to get my ass in gear and play along. Or maybe not...maybe I just need to get my ass in gear and just fuck everything else thinks: choose a fucking goal...and do it, stop seeing all sides.

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