New Madonna album...ugh

So, at the behest of Matt, I downloaded the new Madonna album, which I actually found out isn't that new...its from 2005...but I won't split hairs on that. So I threw it in my play list and kept it as background noise while I was doing some research on the floor.

I kept an honest ear open...listening..pretty damn objectivly actually, since I've never considered Madonna to be someone worth making girlie screams over. And to tell you the truth....I wasn't impressed. To me this was average...actually typical Madonna. She's reinvented herself to sound exactly the same...all over again.

I was even objective enough to listen to the album a second time, after an interlude of Our Lady Peace, yea...still didn't impress me. Honestly the music is House-y classic electro beats. Nothing spectacular there, especially since someone ELSE most likely did the mixing/ initial design for them. Which ok, I can agree to, because you need to have a certain degree of experience to creat good mixes like that. So lets say that, like all her other albums, someone else worried about the "music" and her job was to bring the words and the voice. Her voice was fine...kudo's on keeping it strong over the years. That's about where my positive feedback ends.

The lyrics sucked. Case in point..... track 4 "I love New York"...I've seen steaming dog turds IN New York that had better composition than that! How old is the woman? 45? 50?...she's an accomplished singer with a body of work decades long....and she's incorporating the term "dork" into her songs??? Are you kidding me? Oh...by the way (warning sarcastic remark!)...I love that your lyrics still rhyme in some of them...how quaint.....

I'm not going to say I was disappointed, I wasn't really expecting much. And there's no way I'd ever be drunk enough to think that I could do better...but I know I've heard better....off the top of my head.....Chris' December 2006 Mixtape (he just gave me a copy at NYE) (see friend list>Chris>latest blog[I'm not doing that shit for you!]) was mixed better, and more thought provoking than that. By comparison, the flow of the songs was better, the mood of the set was better....etc.
Yea....look for this new album hitting my recycle bin now.

Ponder, Ponder

I'm wandering on the internet today while I'm not up in New York working, and can't get any hours at my job down here. And I float through my boyfriend's friend's different sites. I'm kinda in awe of them, they're really cool. And in a lot of a cheesy sort of way, I really do look up to them, cause they're very neat people.

Kinda makes me wonder what my own life will be like, whenever (or if ever) it starts. Because there are still "too many" moments, where I just am not sure. I look at his friends and its pretty clear what drives them. And pretty cool to see. And while, yes, we are all human at the end of the day, I'm antsy, consequently feeling that I'm behind on things.

I sometimes worry that I'm not passionate about enough things. Or at least enough important things. The one clear cut goal that I am passionate about, is inevitably negative, or so it seems. It makes me feel like I don't really know myself. I don't really know what I want. And while one side says "you're only 22" the other side says "you're 22 already, what are you waiting for?"

*sigh* I haven't done much with my life yet, and I think this bothers me, only until I realize, I have no idea what *special* sort of thing I think I "should" be doing instead.

I know that as a Pisces I'm supposed to be more laid back, and I can agree to that. Sure, I'm in no great rush for anything really, and I'd rather just have fun. But shouldn't I be more aggressive? Shouldn't I be more excited about life? Shouldn't I really know what I want to do rather than just settling for a job with good money that's "at least in my field". I don't hate my job....but I am just sort of "eh" about it. But don't ask me what it is I really want to do. You'll get a blank stare.

I really like my job. Its a lot of fun....there are of course some draw backs...like there is with everything.

I wish it were full time, rather than freelance, maybe then I could move out of my parents house. Its hard for me to make friends there because, as usual, I seem to be the youngest person in my department. I'm almost 23! How the hell am I still getting the "wow you're young"....thanks..I appreciate the complimentary fact, but why is it so shocking? All the time? TO EVERYONE!!! *shakes head with cocked smile* (Side note....of late anyone who has asked me my age usually gets this WOW look on their face, then they tell me how young I am.....we do exist. lol)

Its very strange to hear my coworkers, people who I know don't know each other very well, share deeply personal heart wrenching stories in getting to know each other. I normally want to join in the conversation and engage my coworkers...but not this time. I'm glad I didn't open my mouth, not a topic I really want to share. Let alone hear someone elses story. Ben once put it succinctly in a story he wrote, "virtual strangers sharing on a level of emotional honesty that is beyond atrocious." Its a tad bit out of context here...but I think it works the same...so thanks Ben. I keep hoping I can make everything fit into place. Well, I'm certainly not going to stop trying : )

Probably should have stayed home

So I kinda got hit by a car tonight.....like not with any kind of speed... but still kinda hurty.

Went out to the Village with John, Bob and Eli, to watch the football games. I was in the parking lot and....ouchies!....

No big deal...I'm still alive..my knee hurts a little..but I figure that's no different than any other day. The driver said they thought I would move. Guess that's why you dont' assume. Oh well...today I become another pedestrian in the way.
Lesson learned...get the hell out of the way!

Allergies

Got up today....reluctantly....went to work...more reluctantly, and then went to Jill's to hang with her, the midget, and my boy. Watched clerks 2....hehe...I laugh. We played scrabble....good god why does that sound unbearably mundane?

Well all the while my allergies have been kicking my ass all day, with a wonderful combination of sneezing, running, and both eyes and nose itching...woooohooo! Who said allergies are just hell during springtime? Eh serves me right, I've been slacking in vacuuming my room lately because I've been running so much. So when I woke up with my cat next to my head this morning, and my eyes were two bloodshot orbs, I knew today was just gonna be one of those days.

Goin on a road trip tomorrow, very excited about that, have more listed about it on my myspace page. I'd list a link...but no one reads this...to my relief...so there's no real need. Hehe.